Discussions

Today is? July 10. My phone’s time is 1:14 in the morning yet it’s not real. I think, it’s just a few minutes past 12 midnight.

What are the conversations that I had today?

• Anime
• Love life
• Audi

What anime did I pick up? I had a doze of Eden of the East. It’s a WOW. I’ll rate it 10/10. I want you to watch it too. ROFL.

Next is Audi – My friend and I, actually I call her “kambal” (and for those who don’t know what kambal means, it is “twin”).

I decided not to do it according to the way I arranged it since Audi coincides with the topic love life.

Now what do we have? We both have problems with our… girlfriends online. You know, we rarely meet the people we love. We don’t and haven’t met them IRL but they already know who we really are. We are posers and we played upon them. We played the game that we shouldn’t have let ourselves play. We’ve fooled them, and fell in our own little scheme. Yes, we fell in love, is all. Nothing that interesting, yeah? But for us, it is. Our problems are really the same. We doubt our partners. In my own opinion, the one who doubts the most here is my kambal. About me, I’ve erased every little doubt I have and I’m starting to trust her back. That’s what is happening now. I’m at my feet trying to rationalize my satisfaction and deprive myself into something that will befall into me sooner or later, or let’s just say that’s how I call jealousy. As for my kambal, she’s totally not herself now. Not herself because she’s hiding in the shadows. She’s afraid of getting hurt. She doesn’t know if her partner loves her back.

Time flies by so smoothly as we talked and I remembered my very first encounter with my girlfriend as I told her the truth behind my white lies. I am a woman, not a man. I fell in love with her and without a doubt, kept reality out of reach. I remembered the moment when she told me this: I love you for what you are not because you’re Travis, but you are who you are behind that Travis and both of you are the same. That’s how it came to be.

Remembering those times makes me feel like smiling. Although the hurt, the pain, and the bad memories were saved, I couldn’t believe that until now she still accepts the fact that I’m her lover, and that she loves me for what I am. Impossible yet real. Something unforgettable is being forged through later experiences and how love came to develop, man never can try to explain.

Doubt comes later. You won’t see it coming. Everyone doubts the other and yet I can’t find myself reasoning with doubt. Doubts come just because I think negatively and run away from the truth. I am here waiting for an answer and yet the answer is facing in front of me telling me to read wide and understand every concept that life teaches me.

Oh well, seems like problems do run a longer road than happiness.

Oh, I will always remember this:

‘I’ll never let you go even if you wanted to.”

That phrase never fails to make me smile.

This song goes first in my head..

When people break-up

It’s been quite a while since I last wrote my last post. My friend and “nanay” on-line just broke up with her boyfriend. I wish her full recovery soon, if not so, may someone enlighten her burden and make her “not-so-good-days” into brighter ones. I wish her more smiles than tears. Anyhow, this song rings in my head.

Temporary Madness

Jodie Brooke Wilson

two trees that grow together

til the roots are inseparable

so close, so deep that separation

is inconceivable, unthinkable, impossible ..

They are one life indivisible.

* an ever closer, union of souls

a force of nature

that nothing can control

it’s a temporary madness

that no one ever learned

that love is what you’re left with

when reality returns

your falling in love

temporary madness fills your heart

cupid’s arrow cuts right through you ..

sentimental fool that’s who you are …

your fallin in love.

suddenly your stumbling in the dark

think you know your way but do you?

drivin with no brakes

you’ve gone too far..

its like your in my DNA

like it was always gonna feel this way.

and i know that I’ve been here before

like stepping blindly into space

another time, another place

that so familiar .

Its unbelievable.

Uy, Ok ka lang?

Ang hina ng internet connection these past few days. PLDT, hello? Have you been blown away by some unknown force that your internet connection has been stabbed and you can’t recover still? ROAR!

SMART! MagTXT ka nga! XD

True Lovers daw eh ano? Eto para sa inyo!

PERFECT LOVERS.

Kuba: Laging mapagkumbaba.

Pipi: Hindi nang-aaaway.

Hanep na araw ‘to!

Mayo uno.

Oo nga eh, Mayo Uno ngayon, Labor Day. Anong ginagawa ko ngayon? Habang naglalaro ako ng mybrute, napapa-isip ako. Kaka-log-off ko lang ng AudiPH. So let’s start this.

I think someone wants to wreck my life fully for ‘doing the same to her.’ Just days ago, a former friend of mine at Audi and a family member in  DaEcchiStars badmouthed me for the reason that I broke up with my girlfriend, EX-GF. LOL. HAHAHA!

Okay, this guy said; “Putang ina mo! Ba’t mo ba siya pinapahirapan ng ganito?! Alam mo I can hit girls IRL and can put them into satisfaction! Ikaw tomboy ka lang ng walang magawa kung ‘di magpa-iyak ng mga babae! Tang-ina mo!”

Ha ha? Okay. First things first. HINDI AKO TOMBOY. Secondly, Bi ako, bisexual. Third, nakipag-split ako kasi ayaw ko na rin. Matter of the fact is, ganoon naman talaga, ayaw niya din eh, so ba’t ko pipilitin ‘yung sarili ko sa kanya? Fourth is, HINDI AKO ‘YUNG NAKIPAGSPLIT, SIYA YUNG NAKIPAGSPLIT. Fifth is, “IS LETTING GO A SIN?”

Gusto ko isampal sa mukha ng taong ito, na kung saan man siya ngayon, it’s not bad to defend that person who woes for your friendly shoulder to cry on. Kung nadidistorbo ka niya, why don’t you just put down the phone or cancel the call whenever she calls you? Ang tanga mo naman pala! Hello, if you are in your right mind and you have your own concern put on, you won’t bother somebody’s relationship because you are not involved. YOU ARE NOT INVOLVED BECAUSE YOU ARE OUT OF THE SCENE AND DO NOT PUT YOURSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF OUR FIGHT BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE SO. Do you mind? Can’t you understand what that means? Do you simply involve yourself just because you pity someone who you barely know? Do you pity her because you see her side more pitiful? Or do you really like that girl because you side her? You know, mister, anything in this world can happen. If you like her then go with her. I don’t mind, really. BIG TIME! Do you pity her because you only KNEW her side and not KNOWING mine? Why don’t you see both sides? You oblidge yourself too much and you are not welcome. Put yourself into place. I’ll tell you again: YOU ARE NOT WELCOME.

Okay.

We don’t fit. I just have to put that to my brain and let my heart sink that kind of information.

WE WILL NEVER WORK OUT.

Okay, shut up Arlie! Haha!

She said, I said.

“=]”

It’s what she posted on her shout at friendster.

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You know who you are.

The worst day that happened in my life was of yesterday (for the time being, yes). I’ve argued with her. She left me hanging with problems, all the more with the bad memories that she added. But yes, no regrets. Finally, we decided of letting go. She decided of moving on. With all the madness, the pain and the hurt, of all the tears I got for her, it would end this way. Ah, I have to let go of this too. Okay, after this self-pity and stupidity, I’ll take a new path. I’m ranting, okay? HAHAHA!

Seriously, I was taking chances with you.

I have loved you.

I have cared for you.

You were everything for me.

…

and not it’s all down the drain. Goodbye! I wish you more smiles and may God grant you true happiness in his arms.  I am happy for you.

*Yes, those memories were good, but not enough.

Song playing: My Favorite Mistake – Sheryl Crow

The ‘GAME’ business

Today is hell day. I just finished working on a photoshoot and went to a nearby lan shop to surf the internet and play Audition.

…and this happened

I was asked to buy a channel and I got disconnected by some unknown source. And so, when I tried to log back in, a staggering shocking message appeared in front of my screen;

For a better look:

Question:
Since when did AuditionPH turn into CabalPH?
How did Audition became Cabal?

HAVE A NICE DAY!

Exclusively “Kuholle”

Kuholle

***An online game experience.

What about Kuholle?

This is Kahelle’s exclusive couple made for her alone. Want to know more? This is the story.

One beautiful gay day, Kahelle decided to look for a couple. She made a room in and named it “Finding Kuholle.” (Or was it something like that? I forgot, really. .___.) Minutes later, we were seeing random people going in and out of the room. She wanted her couple to be named Kuholle. The applicants asked her why that was the chosen name (since Kuholle is a slang for the Filipino word ‘Kuhol’ which means ‘snail’) and she told them that the name Kuholle  is adorably cute.  Nobody wanted to change their in-game names and went off. Then I (Thirteen), Kahelle, WinterLove, WinterSonata,  _—zero—_, and _—yuki—_ . (since I don’t recognize their names) were playing, WinterSonata got disconnected from the game. All of a sudden, after a few minutes of waiting, a noob appeared, bearing the name “Kuholle.” We were all like OMG!! WTF!! Who the hell are you? Who are you Kuholle? and nobody knew who that person was. And. . . aah! I don’t want to continue this freaking story and that was how Kuholle was came to life.

*Grins*

So, that’s the end of that not-so-entertaining story.

Kuholle <3

Special thanks to: Ate Pepay for the screen shots. Love you!

The ‘First Post’

I am an amateur writer & photographer who doesn’t really value art as much as other people do. I just find it a hobby. I’ll be posting a few topics soon, and I’m looking forward for ‘more to dig in’ events that will manipulate my unorganized time.

Hell, yeah!

I am also a frustrated online gamer. If you’ve got games to share, let me know!

P.S.: I post random things.